Suffering is not for nothing, a 6 part series and Q&A, by Elisabeth Elliot, from Ligonier Ministries
I listened to the entire series this morning and pasted in a link from the most significant 30 minute lecture. The link will take you to part 4, Gratitude.
I think that part 5 is the most powerful, Offering; but 4 seems to be a prerequisite; and part 6 is very beneficial also.
Her experience with suffering has been framed such that it is highly useful to Christians, as God provides us with suffering and affliction to grow us into the image of His Son; and when you suffer, it is good to have some instruction that will help you perceive it correctly, this series provides just that.
Here is the link to part 4, sample it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2zcBO3EsZBY&list=PL30acyfm60fX67kWhfHl5gIkYnIXjyHhc&index=4
The following link is to talks by Elizabeth Elliot on topics such as loneliness, servanthood, courtship, sexuality, and surrender…a three to four dozen topics or so; a topic of importance to you may be among them:
https://www.blueletterbible.org/audio_video/elliot_elisabeth/misc/elisabeth_elliot_speaks_about.cfm
From Wikipedia, Elizabeth Elliot partial bio:
Elisabeth Elliot (née Howard; December 21, 1926 – June 15, 2015) was a Christian author and speaker. Her first husband, Jim Elliot, was killed in 1956 while attempting to make missionary contact with the Auca (now known as Huaorani; also rendered as Waorani or Waodani) of eastern Ecuador. She later spent two years as a missionary to the tribe members who killed her husband. Returning to the United States after many years in South America, she became widely known as the author of over twenty books and as a speaker. Elliot toured the country, sharing her knowledge and experience, well into her seventies.